Problem

Do you want to know what my problem is?

I will tell you what my problem is,

I LOVE YOU I love your name,

I love the way you look at me,

I love your gorgeous smile,

I love the way you walk,

I love your beautiful eyes,

I love what you look like when you are asleep,

I love the sound of your laugh,
to hear your voice fills my entire heart with an indescribable feeling.

I love the way I can be having the worst day of my life and seeing you completely changes my mood.

I love how when you touch me I get weak,

that is my problem...

But

I'm mad at myself, not you.
I'm mad for always being nice, 

always apologizing for things I didn't do, 

for getting attached, 

for making you my life, 

depending on you, 

wasting my time on you, 

thinking about you, 

following you, 

changing for you, 

forgiving you, 

wishing for you, 

dreaming of you, 

and most of all... 

for not hating you which I know I should... 

but I can't.

Room18 Party

If you want to sing out, sing out, 

and if you want to be free, be free, 

cause there's a million ways to be.

Venue: Room18 in Rawang

Time: 11PM

All the old people or young people SING in the K room!!!

It is fun!!!

I'm freakin enjoy the moment with my family members XD

The K room is very nice!!!

Yes!!!

It is very nice!!!

The Design make me feel very Relax!!!

And

The service is good!

But there are less choice of Foods and Drinks =.="'

The important thing is!!!

The fees is CHEAPPPP~~~

VIP Room we only spent about RM100++(member)

I got an AWESOME night yesterday =D

It is my little brother birthday party!

Actually we should have a count down for him...

but...

We all very enjoy the karaoke...

So...

We forgot about it =.="'

hahahahaha~~~~

Actually last night...

I'm not dare to sing~

I just sitting infront of the PC 

Being a DJ~

Help them to choose the songs~

But...

When they pass me the mic...

Then I just follow to sing lo~~~ XD

Actually...

Very shy la!!!

hahahahaha~~~

We took some pictures too XD

It is very funny picture!!!

hahahahaha~~~

We sang a lot of songs!!!

in 3 hours!!!

Is CRAZY!!!

When the song almost finish~

We will shouting them to insert the next song~

Because...

We don't want to waste time =D

It is because 

There are many people in the VIP room!!!

But...

I hold the mic 2 hours!!!

OSH~~~

It is crazy for me!!!

I have fall in love to sing now!!!

And 

I can't stop to sing!!!

Well...

In  the end...

I'm excited until can't fall a sleep...

And

My voice become very sexy today XD

hahahahahaha~~~~

CAN WE GO FOR KARAOKE THIS WEEKEND AGAIN?! XD

Anyone?!

hahahahahaha~~~

Impulse

If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies

 You pick me up when I fall down

It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes

Thank you for loving me...

Now my guy is in KL...

He just come back for 2 weeks only...

But I don't have the mood to meet him =[

like the normal couple...

My friends ask me...

Why don't I...

No impulse to want to go see him?

Well...

I also don't know...

I think

Maybe I'm not into love yet...=[

Very sad =[

I know I hurt him again...

But he never complain about it...

All I want to do is find a way back into love!

Today...
I watch a clip that about long distance love...



The couple broke up in the end...
 Because of trust and think too much...

 They don't trust each other...
and 
Keep thinking a lot...


Just like me?!


Yes...
I think a lot at night...


Maybe he too good!!!


He is clever, handsome and rich!!!


Feel like 
I do not deserve him...
He should find a better one!
Not me...


Haiz...


Maybe...
We should only stay in friendship not into relationship...


I should think it seriously before get into relationship...=[


We got discuss about the distance problem...
He doesn't mind about it...
But I mind!


I feel like...
I'm couple with the laptop more than you...


Everyday sit infront of the laptop...
Chat chat chat
or 
webcam...


Sometimes 
Laugh like a stupid 
Sitting infront of the laptop...

I don't want this kind of relationship...

Now 
I want to think seriously!


Maybe 
Something end up early 
better than late...


It wouldn't be hurt that much...
Right?!

Change

Growth is the only evidence of life.  

For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, 

and for everything you gain, you lose something else.

Change is the essence of life. 

Be willing to surrender what you are for what you could become.

Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts.

It really changed my life. When we split up, something changed, permanently, in me. 

My heart sort of broke that day, and it will never be the same.

Do not brood over your past mistakes and failures as this will only fill your mind with grief, regret and depression. 

Do not repeat them in the future.

We are not the same persons this year as last; nor are those we love. 
 It is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person.

  

Life is change. Growth is optional. Choose wisely.

Change starts when someone sees the next step.

The first step toward change is awareness. The second step is acceptance.

I read some quotes about CHANGE today~

It is awesome!

 

Actually I want to talk about the Changing of me =D

My friends say I have change a lot!

Like

Become brave AND complain a lot XD

Not like a kitten anymore =D

Because 

Since I was in secondary school...

There were only people bully me...

And

I am like a kitten in the class...

But now!

Jose CHANGE already!

Like

I  DARE to drive to everywhere!

When people bully me, I will scold them back!

And another...

I feel that my guy love me a lot!

And I treat him very bad lo!!!

Always scold him =D

cannot do this cannot do that~

Just like a sassy girlfriend!

But 

For the past relationships...

I am just like a little girl little kitten~

And they don't like me...=[

And the conclusion is...

Broke up FAST!

Is it nowaday...

Boys like girls like TIGER?!

Treat them bad~

Scold them~

This is a FUN for couple?!

hahahahaha~~~~ XD

Anywhere...

Im enjoying~ =D

Inviting

My guy is inviting me to go to his house~

and

He is going to cook for me =D

and do something else~

Like play the Violin and Guitar~

Show off?!! =.="'

Because

Next week his family is going to Penang for a wedding dinner~

So

There are no one in the condo...

Im still thinking...

Go or not~~~

Because only two of us in the big condo is not that good =D

So

I decide to invite my buddy Johnvi to join us!

But...

He is busy on that day...=.="'

and

Call me enjoy the sweet moment with my guy...=.="'

and

He says Mr D is a good cook!!!

Fine~~~

See first la~~~

But...

I want to play with BOSS...=[

hahahahahaha~~~

Finally...

later only decide la~~~ =D

Mr D meets Ms J

 

Mr D. meets Ms J.
this is a story of boy meets girl.
but you should know upfront, this is not a love story.

My friends keep asking me about...

How I met Mr D!!!

Well well well~~

Is time to talk about it =D

I have to refresh back last year...

Once upon a time...

Fine la~

Be serious now~

hahaha~~~ XD

I remember that day...

Johnvi (My Buddy)

suddenly sms me and ask for a date~

Sure okie la~

Venue: KLCC Chili's

After class I rushed there lo~

Yes!

Im late~~ XD

And I saw a Stranger sitting with Johnvi...

Yes~

First feeling is...

What a handsome guy!!! =D

Then Johnvi started intro me lo~

After that we say 'Hi' to each other lo~

hahahaha~~

We are freaking shy la~~~

Then order our lunch lo~~~

And then Johnvi and I keep Blablabla there~~

Yes!

We ignored Mr D~~~

hahahahahha~~

We are bad~~~

And Mr D can't join our talk~

because he dn't really understand Cantonese~~

hahahahahaha~~~

Mr D looks very lonely sitting there and eat his food~

He is very silent!!!

Aiyo~~

He looks so pity~~

So I talk to him lo~~

Ask him some personal questions!!!

He is a Korean mix Malaysian Chinese 's baby

Name Daren Park Jun Kong~

19 years old (2010)

Live in Bangsar~

Got 2 brother ( 21 and 10 )

Then He also ask me some personal questions~

hahahahahaha~~~

This time we have been ignored Johnvi!!!

And he keep giving us =.= this face~

After that we all talk together lo~

talk about no sense things~

After one week~~~

Johnvi dates me again~

Venue: KLCC Kinokuniya BookStore~

When I reach there and give Johnvi a call~

He told me he can't attend the date...

But Mr D will be there soon~~~

And he call me enjoy the date...

=.="'

What the bad Johnvi!!!!

Im Nervous!!!

We not that close la~!!!

How to have a date wo!!!

Well....

Finally I saw Mr D pop out infront of me after few second only!!!

and I be scared =.="'

and says Hi to him~~~

After that we go to Food court take our lunch lo~~~

Then we sit silent and eat our lunch...

Accidentally~

We looked to each other!!!

and laugh about it~~~

And then

I say we are too silent...

Can we talk something~~~

PS: Im Shy n Nervous~~~

Then he talked about Johnvi and his dog BOSS (American Bulldog)~~~

 Im crazy love that kind of dog!!!

Then we keep blablabla about it~~~

After that...

Johnvi keep on using this way to cheat us out...

And we are stupid until believe him everytime...=.=

Then Mr D and I become best friend 

Because of Johnvi did a good job lo!!! (Hear it?!)

hahahaha~~~

Johnvi told me that Mr D want to chase me...

He is asking my Hp number~

But I didn't give him...

Feel like impossible la~~~

Feel that...

He just play play only la~~~

After  I got a BF~

We less come out already...

 Johnvi told me Mr D is very down when he knows i got a BF...

After that...

Mr D's mom want him goes studies in Sydney...

When the day before he leave~

Johnvi cheats us again!!!!!

Yes!!!

Johnvi FFK again =.="'

After lunch~

We go to KLCC park have a walk~~~

Suddenly

He asks me to give him a goodbye kiss!!!

WHAT?!

He says everyone have give him a goodbye kiss...

Except me~

HAR?!

After few mins...

I jump and kiss his face lo~~~

PS: Because he is very tall (183cm)

IS FACE!!!!

That Johnvi keep saying Lip....=.="'

until now.....

After that Mr D happy like a child~~~

This case I didn't tell my BF...

Because care his feeling lo~~~ XD

But...

After Few weeks later...

I told Johnvi that I lost my BF...

He feels so surprise!!!

and 

He told Mr D too...=.="'

Big mouth Johnvi!!!

Mr D creates an FB acc...

and find me on FB~~~

I feel so surprise that he got an FB acc!!!

Because he says 'FB = Waste time' before~~~

But now~~~

He falls in love to FB...=.="'

And

The worse is ....

He love that 偷菜 Game....=.="'

And I always call him go...

BANG WALL LAAA~~~~

hahahahaha~~~~

Finally....

We are together~

Yes!!!

I had skip some parts la....

Let keep it as a Secret la~~~

Johnvi!!!!

Don't be big mouth again!!! =.="'